"Relief Next to Me"

I was going to write something really obscure about my perceptions on trust, friendship, and my continual journey down the road of being taken advantage of. But you know what? I don't need to worry about those things. I've been writing and rewriting what I was going to rant about. But I have everything I need! I have a family that loves me and never judges me, I have the Lord to guide me and a Father who guides me everyday. I have a life given to me to experience. There's a quote in my dorm hallway that says, "The Lord has not given us the gospel to go around mourning all the days of our lives" (President Lorenzo Snow). I have been given many opportunities this school year to learn about people and why they do what they do, their perceptions on life, why they treat me the way they do. But the Lord is just showing me that I need to love myself and find love, charity, and the Savior in everything I do. That's why I'm really grateful for trials. They teach me something every time. I'm tired of being hurt, so I'm going to do something about it, put my foot down. If that means more alone time, then so be it! I actually really love being alone sometimes. One of my great friends Mike said something to me the other day that really struck me: "Today passes us by as we plan too much for tomorrow." It's time for me to become confident in myself and love myself and live each day fully because it has been given to me. I really am grateful for friends like him who always makes me feel good about myself. I'm definitely not perfect and I definitely makes mistakes. I always put myself down for not being smarter or WAY prettier. But I'm grateful that I have been blessed with family and friends to support me along the way and bring me happiness!

Anyway, in more objective news, I have 20 more days until I go home!! I love school, but it's really time to go home and get away from this place. Finals start two weeks from tomorrow.